it is quiet in the mountains
in a beautiful and sacred way
stillness
and joy in my heart that when I focus on it I realize I am crying softly inside
a joyful sorrow, if that makes sense
wonder
often I wake up and realize I am living the perfect life
oh I know it wouldn’t look that way to many others
no husband, no partner, isolated on a sometimes cold mountaintop
but, for me
I am feeling the name that is bubbling up to be my garden’s name
Ananda
do you get it?
I think maybe I do?
maybe it’s a little bit like living meditation
there is no cacophonous noice not even a physical vehicle to bring in TV noise
instead just living with the mountains
I read something a few minutes ago about imagining a life you want
and I realize I am living the life I want
it is a story a mystery with unknowns
I don’t know how things are going to be because I am doing so many new things
but all things I have yearned for
I am proud of myself of the things I have accomplished in just a few short months
feel as though I have already reorganized my life in some pretty significant ways
my daily routines including learning some yoga and learning more meditation and time in nature and a pattern of regular walks
and learning to work further with humans in other dimensions with some strongly discernible healing results as I practice on myself
clearing up things I didn’t know I could, within the context of believing perfect health is possible
anything is possible
even making friends and some beautiful people indeed
finding ways to feel I’m more efficient with “getting things done” something that has somehow seemed important to me
and so many projects that take my breath away
the biggest one just stepping into now
my co-creative garden beginning to learn about and beginning to do some planning
improving the comfort beauty and safety of my living space
and aware of additional things waiting in line to be healed and addressed
I know I need to integrate some ways to play a bit more and relax a bit, even though I spend my days doing things that I am passionate about and give me joy
this is what I am getting as to why my love-in-form Charisma still acts up a bit
she is insistently reminding me I still have work to do with play and relaxation
and, although making some progress, yes I am
still need a bit more work on transforming some of my fears
but, overall
the mountains are in my chest
I am so grateful
and stoking up feeding my own embers
with a desire to fully play my role
my honor
to help support humankind
love and blessings to all,
Lynn